What is the realty

Hi friends,
Yesterday you know what happened? i got a reply email from Jim Warren(a famous world class painter) really a memorable moment of my life. My close friend know, How much i m big fan of Jim warren. That was like a dream come true. He is a world class artist and he replied to me. really a can't explain in word.
Ya one of my friend gave me a book in gift" How to influence the people; Dail Carnegie" really awesome book about human behaviour. In that book there were a lesson called self apprising.
How the people can justify their work. There was a interesting story about a rapist and a murderer in USA. How he justify his act what he did. He says i was alone and just i followed the nature what god gives me. Friends, Is that the proper justification, surely no, So every one is proving himself right. But pure justification is towards you. when you are going to sleep and you think about yourself that what you did. Is that was right. you will find answer yourself. And if that answer can give you sound sleep, then you can think you was right. Is after death you are able to look at god with your answer , then you was right.
Remaining is the materialistic thing, Today we are dying for materialistic thing. But we know how much is the sustainability of these things.
And Friends, The person who is saying selfish to me . i don't need to prove myself. Because if i can't prove myself in one and half year then i can't prove myself in my seven life's. So to see the person there should be a vision and these are not dialogue. Because Ram is lord for someone and devil for someone.
With me everything is right each and every time i think what Krishna did with me that was in my favour. But problem occur when i take my responsibility in my hand. When i challenge sovereignty of Krishna. I think to take my own decision. But Krishna will do better for me. I should realise
Ya i m thinking to leave my job, and continue my family business might be in upcoming month i will leave my job. But rest decision is on my family and circumstances. Ya i want to earn a bulk of money, power and status.
So i have to continue my family business. Hare Krishna......